After that went home and slack wit Amal.....wei...kau uat ku jealous banget!!! Hahaha cool pix n really cool video. Ouh my...hmmph!!
Wake up this morning to a call. My dad admit to hospital...again...haiz...Apparently he had trouble breathing and shivering at work so he went to the hospital. No...not again...why must it be during this difficult times this thing happen. Really kill of the dae...now myself feeling sick...Money?? There goes my saving to buy new bike...all gone to bills....What a bro who is selfish bastard and also immature...Heard his converstion with my mum, how do I wish I could wack him...Been all trouble and all he have bring to this family is trouble...
This coming weeks I be staying in, my dad not sure when will he discharge and my mom will be all alone and can't really depend on my bro to take care of her...To ask to stay out?? Army?? Nah...don't think so....
Life do really sux big time, trying to change myself to be better but hit with all this obstacle. Yeah a few of you might not believe me saying this as I'm always the one that motivate others, open up their minds and be joker so that I be able to brighten up their day. Well of all the happy-go-lucky side of me...deep down I do suffer from great depression and confusion in life. I do lend my ears and shoulder to other to lean on but myself still not able to get it in return.
Like my mum says...you don't need friends to live but HE the only one that can make you live. Meaning without HIM you can call yourself dead as he the provider of everything and he give you hope in life. I do make mistake that I really regret. Friends so far there no friends who really think of life and the future, what I mean in future is afterlife. They say that all money in the world can't buy happines but money do can change someone life and how I wish I can get it. To earn it is another thing to prosper with it is hard. Now I'm planning my future, and it a big obstacle that I'm facing.
I do really thank GOD at where I am now in army. To be able to get 2 license andafter I ORD the prospect of me getting job is high. Can work in logistic and earn afew $K to get my private dip and open up a business. That been my plan for all this years and hope it will happen before I reach 30.
So I have set my goals and aim in life, just hope and pray it all will become reality and I know it will be hard. I will not spend my time wasted with other stupid things and sorry if you all don't see me again as I think there nothing much you all give me in return and fit to call yourself friends. Maybe just I know you, you know me that all....
