Had advance birthday celebration on Sunday 1st March at Sakura Orchard. Was shock and speechless at Taka cos of Zurah giving me flower hahaha. Then at Sakura eat till full, got gift undies, perfume and zippo hahaha ouh my they said I act as if nothing happen but in my heart I was really2 touch and hand shivering just dat I was able to hide it....abg2 mah...haha. Then went of to Orchid Country Club for bowling then off to camp haiz...slept at Mandai alone...scary....
It not helping when you start to dream of her, think of her, care and concern for her. Well it might be sympathy. It happen again. This time at a wrong time and it shouldn't have happen. Felt this once and it all over but I regret it till now. It a mistake that really creep up into me. What I been saying all along back fire on me. Why must this happen to me. What the cause of it? I just don't know.
And sometimes I stop to wonder if this person will ever notice how much i beginning to like them. How much I care about them. But sometimes they don't. That's the hardest part. I've got to move on. It hurts. And to see them with someone else will hurt at times. But telling myself everything is alright until I feel mended inside enough to try going a day without telling myself, but believing it instead, is the best remedy now and then. It won't happen, will never happen, and sure it gonna be weird...
And sometimes I stop to wonder if this person will ever notice how much i beginning to like them. How much I care about them. But sometimes they don't. That's the hardest part. I've got to move on. It hurts. And to see them with someone else will hurt at times. But telling myself everything is alright until I feel mended inside enough to try going a day without telling myself, but believing it instead, is the best remedy now and then. It won't happen, will never happen, and sure it gonna be weird...
