Music heal the soul....

14/05/2011

2011-05-14T03:47:00.001+08:00

After soo long finally I log in to my blog hahahaha

2010-09-06T03:34:00.000+08:00

It totally dead :-/

Happy

2010-07-19T09:49:00.004+08:00

It been awhile since I last blog. Life has been ok-ok. Not that great but I'm happy with the way it is. End of my national service, I back to zero. No girlfriend, no money(which I regret at not saving) and no bike. But hey, at least I got my freedom back haha..

My ex has been pestering me. I'm hating it...I'm totally over her and it thing of a pass. There are lesson to learn and I'm glad that God have make me realised my mistake. All I could do is pray for her problems to settle as soon as possible and go on with her life.

Job hunting..... I'm not picky but again. It has been a routine in NS and I don't want to go back to work soon. I take this few months as a holiday for me and thanx for kendarat on the weekend that able me to survive haha. Applied for a few jobs but mostly unsuccessful or I decided not to sign it. I'm not ready yet.

ICA-Specialist got the job. Going to sign it on this coming Wed and also class 3 & 4 in my hand haha. Yeah I know that ICA, people would think that the job is just stamping passport and stuff. But what job can I really find that can top off what ICA offer me?? Not that I haven't gave a thought about it. 2 years, stable job, monthly income is good, with OT and bonuses...It pretty good. Like what I have aim. 2 years, to clear all my family financial problems and save up to further my studies part time/upgrade myself and etc.

All look to be on the good side and been positive. Just pray that it stay this way. My friends and family is the only thing that I need for now. There nothing that can make me happy beside having them around me.

"P.s. To whom it may concern...this song dedicated to you... :p"

Start afresh!

2010-05-15T05:49:00.003+08:00

Aite it ended yep im single and ready to mingle...hahaha wtf...It just didnt work out but then we all have to move on she said it and now she regret it but theres no turning back now. Now left techanically 11 working days till ORD, I have no bike, so back to bus and mrt...no girlfriend so im free like a bird and no job yet....(Woit time to start finding a job!!!) K2 I will soon....Hiaz... WEEEE!!! K this is ma latest update after so long of lazy bumming and bz with werk n ex hahaha till nxt time ciao!

FREEDOM!!

2010-05-03T19:36:00.006+08:00

Left around 30 more days minus weekend and leave and yet I still not sure of what I'm gonna do when I ORD..ouh man WERK? STUDY? JOBLESS?? Haiz... Life have been ok, love have been better then before but like I said I'm just waiting for the right time but who I'm kidding?? Arggh!!! FREEDOME!!

2nd Mnth and still counting

2010-02-13T18:23:00.006+08:00

ORD in -3-4 months time. Attached for almost 2 months and there lotsa up and down but life still have to move on. Actually all have been great except for the ATEC thingy. We should be rewarded for our hard work. Damn it doesn't make sense...no more off except leave and there only 6 leave left. Haiz...

She took it while I'm eating grrrr and thought that she delete it...

2010 and I'm sick..

2010-01-02T03:17:00.004+08:00

Yea, so end it here and new year began. Spend the night with a few close friends..and just slacking it off...Hahaha...well no new year resolution this year as it won't really happen. Well maybe a few and that is to find gd job, or to study again and get my class 3/4 license upon completion of my NS.
Yea I have plan alot of things which I wanna do this year before I ORD but I guess it won't happened.. Tioman lar, Paramore concert lar whatever shit it is..it won't happen with my situation that I'm in.

I'm just so envious with other people having this and doing that in which I might not be able to get. Ouh God..sometimes I wonder what the purpose of me being here in this world. Seriously shit..I sometime dream that I would be all fine alone with nobody befriending me. I mean...like one of my friends says when u gone, m.i.a, not only would they care less about you they bitch about you as well but for me.... when I'm missing nobody ever care!!! hey!! wait a sec....think about it some of them don't even remember me or knowing that I existed hahahaha.

True but that reality of life. Well....*sigh* just live ur life as it is....just follow the flow....

WOOHOO!!

2009-12-18T20:52:00.007+08:00

I'm doing something that I can't imagine myself doing but well I already did it so yeah...Haiz... So far so good it going well. Hope it goes smoothly till next year.

Ouh yeah, guys if you wanna celebrate my birthday next year, why not put it on hold till 7th March at the Singapore Indoor Stadium... PARAMORE CONCERT!!! YEAHH!! They finally coming over...Fiz we gonna get the best view aite hahaha. So all plans up, The Shack for New Year Celebration March Paramore concert hmmm what else...Road Trip to Malaysia anyone?? Book me in advance cause I'm gonna M.I.A soon till ORD....

Mixed and Random. Im distance away..

2009-12-04T00:35:00.009+08:00

1stly I bet no one will read my long boring blog. So a place where I could write about anything and just to let it out. Well my own words, my own opinion and belief. It just indiscernible to the reader but known only to me. Enough said...

*Sigh*

I don't know...arghh...well it hard to say it...problems...one after another...well that life. The beauty of life where there happiness and surround by love ones and friends and the next thing hatred, anger, loneliness, suicidal thoughts... feels like you alone selfless facing the world all by yourself... Adding with the burden that you knew or you just waiting to land on your shoulder... Really not prepared not wanting all this...

To who do I seek to? Why does this happened to me... A test from God's? What I have done good or bad seems no different... All the good side of me...izzit truly me? Or I'm just not that good enough or meant to be bad.

The fear that I'm facing is truly unimaginable... I'm ashamed of this fear.... I might share this fear with a few others and even more worse to those who refuse to accept that they are in fact terrified of the possibilities of their own existence. An existence that shared with those we call strangers, friends and love ones, because we don't live within ourselves but in a place which is not ours. So it changes me, change oneself to become loners, victims to disappointment and pain… No one person wishes to stare into nothingness, crying quietly and feeling alone… but yeah it hard, knowing that you tried so hard to fit in but fail and so we choose to walk in fear and to continue alone rather than suffer the torment of realizing that things may happen that we have no control over, things we can’t stop or even foresee…

End of the day it ok because if our live has any purpose at all then both the good and the bad alike will serve to that very purpose, and therefore there is no reason to turn our back on the world and shut everyone out for fear of their inadequacy at being perfect…

Pride to none.....

2009-11-30T16:32:00.004+08:00

On Wednesday 25th November, Centralised Material Transport Line at Mandai Hill Node made history and make everyone stand up and take notice. 10 of us including me involve in the 1st ever 1st Transport Battalion Cohesion Day Competency Skills Competition...

We were to camo our vehicle 1x OUV and 1x 5-Ton. Q&A and go through obstacles. Most difficult I must say is the slalom with a cup of water being put on the side of the vehicle and maneuver it without water spilling out just like the movie Initial D hehe :p

Champion as always... victory is sweet hehehe.

Friends
I love them and I hate them,
I need them but sometimes I want them far away.
I hurt their feelings sometimes but expect them not to hurt mine.
I wish they would be this or that but I love them the way they are.

They are funny and loud,
They are quiet and reserved.
They are obnoxious and immature,
They are clingy and needy.

They are sometimes rude,
They are sometimes mean.
They don’t always understand me,
They don’t always listen.

Some secretly hate me,
Some secretly can’t live without me.
Some don’t really care,
Some don’t know what to say.

I love them all the same though.
I most definitely need them too.
But I just don’t know if they need me…
haiz..

2009-11-15T18:13:00.003+08:00

Been thinking alot...man I do need to change....but..... Well I'm just happy that I'm surrounded by gd friends....no3...GREAT WONDERFUL FRIENDS.....companion? I give it a pass...

Being emo...well I for one keep denying it but then yeah I do, everybody do ure are a fucker if you deny you never being emo...and I'm emo-ing abt my family prob not abt love shit and stuff... For that girl thnx for calling me emo when you cry at night, and having a drink and get tipsy (changing to a minahrep...where the sweet and cute side of ya??) rather then trying to solve the prob when you are partly to be blame. For that guy, at least I don't pretend that I don't have any prob and I do face it and take it like a man. You don't keep quite and pretend nothing happen when you see that it going to hurt your family sooner or later... And both of ya...you know who you are and I have told you both right in your face...think abt it aite...

I ponders, I think, I self-reflect, I write and I say......

"My blog my say, my thought, my way..."

Dragon Boat and Midnight Shift

2009-10-24T19:48:00.009+08:00

Here a few pix of my MT Line Cohesion Day at Kallang Dragon Boat Association. Really had a great time and enjoy ourselves. More on facebook.

Listening to safety brief...(like real)

My PWO his fav word : "kepala buto korang"

Platoon 1(not full squad) with FSM

Abg2 step fierce step terror dan step2 yng sewaktu dganya

Pro dragon boater....hahaha

K Rock Slambe \w/ hahaha cover line cause we lost the race came in 2nd lst (-_-'')

Orite spent most of ma leave bringing ma dad here and there and didn't really spent much time with friends..but have a blast yesterday. Should hav gone to Dbl O too pfftt nvm...

So got an invite to Midnight Shift S'pore 1st Official After Hours Party.

Here a lil info on Midnight Shift

"Different party scene out of the dark. One that was always there but never seen.

It's the afterhours and for those whom which the night means a little more than the day. For those who've had just enough, to want a little more.

What goes on is undictated, unplanned and left unsaid. A belonging, a code of conduct, a way of living that defies the rules of the opposite day."

Got the invites and I can bring along 2 guest so Diyanah and Imran tagged along. A 1st clubbing experience for Im and a new atmosphere for me and Diyanah...

Held at the Helipad (The Central) where you can enjoy magnificent landscape of the city skyline from it 2 levels...

Pix credit to Diyanah, snappy2..

Pix taken from Helipad.com.sg

Of all the excitement we didn't go up to 2nd floor where we can enjoy the beautiful view and the Helipad! arghh.. what a waste...

Overall it ok for a free admission but not that damn happening, maybe because of the choice of music...anyway did enjoy ourselves and do looking forward for more invites.

BNG Raya 09

2009-10-11T21:11:00.002+08:00

Orite...there nothing much really to update but just really have great fun yesterdae with BNG. Here the pix taken at everyhse we went xcept for Aminah hse haha we totally forgot about that but there a video of us asking for "forgiveness" and a music video clip under Eddie block hehe just waiting for Fizah to upload it. End the day with Ben and Jerry's at Dempsey Hill and gossiping at 2am wow! haha tsk3...so back to camp aiya...and thank God that father is well and back home... So guys cya on next book out!! CIao~

"When words are many, sin is not absent, but he who holds his tongue is wise..."

LOMO-LOMO-LOMO

2009-09-21T16:27:00.005+08:00

1st day raya was kinda relax. So spent most of ma time at home watching soccer match and net browsing...and I'm so happy that my bro finally got a stable job with Kodak. His job is delivery and when free process/develop and edit film....I don't know what his job called but yeah that it. Will be doing Pizza Hut part time.. He should make full use of his talent. Without cert he still can get the job that he want. He should now set his priorities rite...It will really help me alot when I got my Holga cam hehe free film please...

I'm just amaze with the lomo pic that been taken by lomographic camera. Truely amazing and wonderful.

Sealow08 said "Well you should do what I do and shoot with everything. No need to limit yourself to digital or film or Holga. It's fun to express yourself creatively with what ever you feel like shooting with this week.

I shot digital for years but found I was spending more time in photoshop than out shooting and enjoying my photography. Now I shoot with what ever I feel like on the day and I feel like I'm rediscovering photography all over again."

I want HOLGA cam rite now!!!!!! Hahaha ok so who wanna be ma model hmmm... hehe

Open house at Fizah place later...I'm hungry rite now....Nak mati!!!

Well rested....SELAMAT HARI RAYA EVERYONE

2009-09-19T23:45:00.006+08:00

So I be spending most of my time at home for a couple of days. Off on Thurs, leave from Fri till Wed. Woah...not really about enjoying the Raya but time to take a time out and rest and spend time with family and friends. Don't really have the mood to celebrate raya as it the same as the previous years so nothing special except for the part where you ask for forgiveness..Lot of sin been done *evil laugh*

So to all muslim who reading this which I doubt so...Selamat Hari Raya and forgive me for my mistake that I have done towards you. I mean it :p hehe

Here a afew pix taken during the Family Day at Singapore Discovery Centre and Steam boat at Zurah place. More on Facebook

Zurah Place

Melissa Polinar "Try" worth watching :p
Stop the song playing to view this clip.

Hey

2009-09-13T16:32:00.009+08:00

Hey it been ages since I last update. Nothing new, well there is but don't wish to mention about it. Going to break fast at Zurah house later. Steamboat seh woohoo... So I'm sooooo into lomography. Which camera should I buy...hmmmm...

Golden Half Camera

Kodak Instamatic 76x

Holga

So enjoy the video below aite. It from Tinchy Stryder and Amelle (Sugababes) - Sweet Dreams/Beat Again Cover

L.I.F.E

2009-07-26T15:27:00.003+08:00

Nothing much to write...well actually maybe too much things to say but little time to spare. Spend the time together with 3 of my camp mates on Fri going to ECP beach, eat at Lagoon and Vivoing haha. Was fun and crazy. Who says guys don't go to beach together?? K it sound wrong but yeah hahaha. Sat duty at 4SIR then back today and meeting the Boys and Girls...miss you guys..ouh got a heat rash damn...all because of 4 days outfield hopefully it will went away before the nxt outfield.. Orite till nxt time cya!! Nothing much rite? Im boring yeah I know!!!

n.e.w

2009-07-04T04:52:00.003+08:00

Back in camp as per usual but this time with lots of physical training. Damn it, I felt like in BMT days...but this is for our own benefit so couldn't complain much. One of my head(person in charge) is back and now...I'm going to be a driver guide woohoo...meaning my job will be to orientate new drivers. Well that would be a tiring one but hey I be able to slack on my mileage...no need to chiong anymore. Think it getting tougher for me with added responsibilites on me. Be going for orientation on new vehicle as in GP Car, Minibus, Ambulance...Just hope that it will be GP Car and Ambulance only. Not sure if I'm up for it...I just want to be low profile can? Haiz...what the use of me doing lots of work, a slight mistake can get F...doesn't get anything in return...Even my off is reset...Just wanna serve n f off...with a class 3 AND 4 in hand...That just my aim..

Saturday wanna go out...Sun extra aiyooo...haiz...

"Use to be the moon...now the stars...taking a step at a time..."

Hope smash...crash!!

2009-06-24T20:15:00.003+08:00

Just the thought of extending and returning to camp by next week made us smile and happy and crazy all night long. This morning we hand over...shit!!! Half day today, tomorrow IPPT (confirm fail) half day too...Fri off but there CO Evening/Night wau lau...I be at the pit at a later time aite guys...I sure will be there and hopefully there no detail on Sat and Sun....Ouh btw enjoy the new song...it latest, hot, juicy and creamy...haha sound wrong...Uh Oh!! CYA!

Hell....

2009-06-22T21:57:00.006+08:00

My MT Line getting crazier and ffing stupid. 8 and a half days of off was reset (4days off which I got because of the Taiwan Ex)...How fair is that, all because of not signing a RAC Form which btw not totally my fault. Woah reset off and 7 extras...mind you, I would prefer to do the extras rather then reset my off. So no more nite out, no more booking in by 2359, live run all must go easy to say it like BMT days...and there still 1 year to go!!! Wtf....Tomorrow Ops B and the day after, back to hell....May God be with US...Amin!

World crashing down...

2009-06-18T22:13:00.003+08:00

Today a relax day, but then it came down crashing....but out of it tiny opening peeps through a shining star which brighten up the darkness...well not that bright but it something rather then nothing....Key to everything is...hmmmm...gtg...let me continue some other time....

HAPPY BDAE!! Living the life....

2009-06-10T21:38:00.009+08:00

Haven't update for quite awhile...just been busy with camp. Haiz...exhausted like hell...sum up with the endless stress, despair, problems and many more... I'm gonna go crazy one of these days...The only thing that kept me go on is....hmmm? No answer...not even myself know the answer...Pfftt... So currently attached to 4SIR doing OPS at Jurong Island...so 2 days werk 2 days off. Ok ar..not bad just hope it would be longer...Lotsa June babys...

Next in line would be ZOOOORAAHH!!!!! Wish you in advance as I won't be able to go for the Seoul Garden argh!!...So Wish you a HAPPY BIRTHDAY...so far so gd you doing well in life and love and possibly have achieve some of your goals...(k2 Vespa part kau lom agi hehe ) Stay happy stay healthy and stay watever stay you wanna stay aite hehe

(K aku carik gmbr candid and ni je dpt...toyol kat blakang tu tk usah tengok die, buat bodoh je k hehe)

Bck in camp in about 2 hrs time...aiyo...Jalan Bahar...Lim Chu Kang...Cemetery~~~ WOOHOO!! hehehe
Dragging................. CYA!!

I wanna be like Sebastion VOODOO

Damn...tired...

2009-05-17T12:51:00.010+08:00

So my MT line have been chaotic. Lack of driver, too many detail and LAB tomorrow. How I wished I didn't go to Mandai. Plus the bad news that occur with a few of my friends in camp. Arghhh!!! Too exhausted... Lately been doing a lot of good deeds...not boasting but amaze of myself for doing it. Found $250 stuck at atm, the previous user forgot to take it, without second thought I straight away took it and return back to him. Cover detail for my friend who is tired and damn am I thankful for it. 1stly my Saturday burn, I was told the detail will end on Sat morning but no, it till Sat night. Later on got a shocking news of what happened on Fri night in which if I were involve or just be there itself...it gonna be really hard on my family. Thank God...really...

One thing I learned from that incident...do choose your friend wisely...don't get involve in shit things or whatever...If you know of the bad things don't get involve...It not worth it...really....

Till next post or till the next meet up...cya! Take care friends!

~Good deeds go unnotice don't expect something in return as surely God have something for us to gain~

Melissa Polinar " Sing to Me"
She brighten up my day.... :p

Im back but away again...

2009-05-04T13:05:00.008+08:00

Back from Taiwan....a real experience I must say...a total of 25 days. Too much to say to little time to say it. So I guess a pictorial story will do for the time being....

Platoon 1 report at Changi Airport...

Bunk condition...

Taken during driving orientation halt point

Same as above...

Shop at Kenting during our nite off

The most popular bike in Taiwan hehe Yamaha Mio

Heng Chun memorial

Ma hairstyle not a mohawk, it the wind ok...

Aquarium with big stingray, fishes, salmon, and even whale shark!!

Sea Sand Worm

Vivo City of Kaohsiong

Kingspin Hotel cool place...

Crazy Coaster (which I didnt ride on)

Our MT Line with S4

More pix coming soon... cya!!

TAIWAN HERE I COME!!! CYA!!!

2009-04-07T21:22:00.004+08:00

Ok time check 2125...in 1 and a half hour I be at airport...Hmmm...There sumthing strange happened to me yesterday while chatting with Fifi....I went crazy and lost control of ma feeling and emotion...sorry gerl...don't know what up with me. I feel bad about it...really maybe I know why but then nvm...So went out to change currency, wth I got less hmm... Stuff already packed. What should I do on the flight beside listening to musix it gonna be long...ouh and another thing it cold and wet over there. It 11-20 degree celcius my god it gonna be bad. Especially driving a land rover, it gonna be hard whatever it is just hope when I drive, it gonna be ok and have "REAL" fun during the 3 days R&R hehehe. Alrite my friends...see ya all on the 2nd May (If you wanna pick me up, I be back on 2nd May Sat 0220am T1 hehe) Take care and don't miss me...save some fun for me too aite... CYA!!! Pray for ma safety!!!

A group set up by my friend Fizz, those who are interested feel free to join them...

Picture, Tired and Flying Off

2009-04-03T16:39:00.006+08:00

This week my last week before flying off... damn shag. Monday detail as per usual SSC. Tuesday duty driver follow by 2 days outfield...damn I didn't drive alot this week...Today I'm off and there 2 more days left to prepare for my kit bag. Monday inspection at Mandai and Tuesday final day submit our bag and last day of inspection at 4SIR. Hopefully there no activation on the weekend...Haiz...

Last weekend went to celebrate Umar birthday at Botanical Garden, follow by Pixy at Marina Barrage with BNG.... Here some of the pix

Report to airport on 7th April Tuesday at 11pm
Flying off on 8th April Wed at 1.30-1.45am
Be back on 2nd May Sat at 2am on 2nd May Sat

If you get hurt put a smile on
Nod your head and walk away
You can cry, it's not a weakness
Remember that you're going to be alright

Hold onto that sense of hoping
And maybe one day you'll believe it
So that you can go into life without
Fear of feeling that loss again

Life goes on
Please remember this
Even though one thing ends
It doesn't have to end everything

Worst 31 hrs wow!!!

2009-03-17T19:54:00.003+08:00

It been getting worst. Monday 16/03/09 4SIR Charlie's Company Live Firing 5am wake up. Heading to Pasir Laba Live Firing Area drive a 5 ton for trooplift and store run. Reach back to camp on 17/03/09 2am load all the store by 4am. Head back to Mandai 5am. Arghh!! Book out at 9am. It took 2 hrs by public to reach hme. For today till 12pm 17/03/09 it been 31 hrs I have not sleep. Actually jus a nap here and there. Totally shag...Lucky there off but how do I wish I can book in tomolo morning....haiz...there fieldpack inspection and all.

Birthday and feeling....

2009-03-04T15:15:00.009+08:00

I was born on 04/03/1987 on Wednesday morning 11.46am. Today 4/3/09 Wednesday haha fit in well...and I woke up at 12pm almost same timing hmmm...coincidence felt like being reborn again hahaha.

Had advance birthday celebration on Sunday 1st March at Sakura Orchard. Was shock and speechless at Taka cos of Zurah giving me flower hahaha. Then at Sakura eat till full, got gift undies, perfume and zippo hahaha ouh my they said I act as if nothing happen but in my heart I was really2 touch and hand shivering just dat I was able to hide it....abg2 mah...haha. Then went of to Orchid Country Club for bowling then off to camp haiz...slept at Mandai alone...scary....

It not helping when you start to dream of her, think of her, care and concern for her. Well it might be sympathy. It happen again. This time at a wrong time and it shouldn't have happen. Felt this once and it all over but I regret it till now. It a mistake that really creep up into me. What I been saying all along back fire on me. Why must this happen to me. What the cause of it? I just don't know.
And sometimes I stop to wonder if this person will ever notice how much i beginning to like them. How much I care about them. But sometimes they don't. That's the hardest part. I've got to move on. It hurts. And to see them with someone else will hurt at times. But telling myself everything is alright until I feel mended inside enough to try going a day without telling myself, but believing it instead, is the best remedy now and then. It won't happen, will never happen, and sure it gonna be weird...

Hmmm....

2009-02-23T23:41:00.004+08:00

Life been sucky...it the 1st and not going to be the last.....this week going to be slack..next week going to be hectic....9 more days to 22....what a age...a year older...pfftt....still can't find something to feel proud of all this years....What do i got? Hmm...nothing......Haiizzz.....don't know what bothering me... I feel different this days...

If I have failed so many times before
Why do I still have hope?
It always ends in my destruction
And I'm never able to cope

If I hav failed so many times before
Why do I still dream?
Everything always crashes down
And I'm not as happy as I seem

Why do I keep moving forward
When I feel like there's nothing left?
Is there any point in keeping going?
Or should I just save my breath?

Why do I keep moving forward
When I can't handle where I've been
No matter how hard I try
I am never able to win.

I have got no other choice
So I wake up to face another day
And I'll continue going on
Even if there's nothing to say

I've got no other choice
So I'll just have to learn to cope
Because I've failed so many times
And I don't have any hope.

A lonely tear falls down
A smile turns to frown
Trickles down the cheek
Does not make you weak

A lonely tear escapes
A lifetime of mistakes
A sad and lonely heart
Others broke apart

A lonely tear is dried
So many nights it cried
A friend reached out their hand
And tried to understand

The lonely tear is gone
Life will carry on
With love from a friend
The lonely tears will end

P.s "Tears will dry, relationship will break, hope will gone...life full obstacle...but memories will always be in our mind...with that accompany with faith it will lead us to a path that never end...just walk....walk through the tunnel of darkness...at it end..light there be shine..to that point we will get what we want it just a matter of time do we realize.....at the end of the day...it all about our inner self and faith...that what most of us forget...."

RTU and Outing

2009-02-08T16:32:00.008+08:00

Hey so I finished my Man truck course on Friday. So tonight be booking in and on Fri evening I book out. Feel sucks...how time fly really fast. Just felt like I just started my course and now I'm a qualified driver, driving a big truck...ouh my that can be listed down as one of my achievement...Hopefully this is something that will do me good in my life and the future. So I can expect to be doing my orientation driving all the way this week to click my 1000 mileage. That will be tough. Hopefully the vehicle commander is a good one.

Sad things is I will miss alot of the bummer outing khakhakha. Don't purposely call me to make me jealous!!! Hahahaha...Had really a good time this few days with the random outing, the chatting online with full of laughter,crap and gossip.

Here the pix of the T3/Changi.Upper Thomson.

UPDATE3...

2009-02-02T22:44:00.009+08:00

Here a few pix taken from the last few outing. Keppel Bay, Bowling and Vivo/Sheesha. There alot more of the pix at my Shutterfly....

Marina @ Keppel Bay
Keppel Bay to Zam Zam then to Ang Mo Kio McCafe

Bowling Outing
Kallang Leisure Park to ECP Lagoon and finally ECP McCafe

Vivo/Sheesha Outing
SGH to Vivo and finally Sheeshaing...

Deeper Conversations - Yuna

Is your favourite colour blue?
Do you always tell the truth?
Do you believe in outerspace?
Im learning you

Is your skin as tanned as mine?
Does your hair flow sideways?
Did someone took a portion of your heart?
And im learning you

And if you dont mind
Can you tell me
All your hopes and fears and
Everything that you believe in
Would you make a difference in the world
I'd love for you to take me to a deeper conversation
Only you can make me

I let my guard down for you
And in time you will too

"What happening? What happen to you and you? Both of you are becoming worst...N what happening to me...is it just a test? There are strong connection growing with someone but which one? I'm totally mess up. Not expecting things to happen....just hope and pray that it will all go smoothly..."

Death, Pit, Beach n Airport

2009-01-27T05:11:00.015+08:00

Ouh I'm here to say that I lost someone I love who I didn't get to spend much time with. My 1st grandad from my mom side who stayed in Terengganu just passed away. We didn't talk much cause I didn't quite understand and I was still a kid back then and we didn't share anything but it you being my grandad and just by knowing you make me feel as if I have known you close enough it really hard explain the feeling....

Back to my course. 5-ton course completed. Just left about 5 days to do my DCP which I don't see why we have to go through all of this. It just for us to get our mileage. Haiz..n 2 more days of OUV and that be it till we return back to our unit.

So it would be a long weekend including the CNY. So on Sat slack with Zurah,Eddie,Hafiz n Farid....went to Zac family bbq and after that me, Farid n Hafiz went lan gaming. Meet the CPW peeps there...

On Sunday went to Changi beach for fun and laughter. More to cuci mata hehehe and swimming woo hoo... After that went to slack at Starbuck and my God we spent a total of 3 hrs there and abt 1-2 hrs plus laughing our ass off on stupid joke and maki hamun Ammar hahaha. Really have a great time that day...

On Monday went out to chill at T3 with Katid, Zurah, Eddie and Hajar. 1stly Popeye then to Starbuck then to Sushi.... Talk alot of crap and all. 2 days of lepak session at Starbuck...I had enough!! hahaha

Today I felt what I been missing all this while. Hope it doesn't end here. There a hope to everything.
HOPE IS ALL GONE?? Seem not for now.....

Happy Bdae to Dad and Januarisman

2009-01-21T00:41:00.005+08:00

Nothing much to blog about. Just that my dad discharge today so he won't be celebrating his birthday at the hospital hahaha. Well not much to celebrate just a well wishes and do'a for his health and safety. My family don't really make it as a tradition for us to celebrate birthday and I don't really think much of it...well maybe because I never have one while growing up. Except when I was really small hehehe Whatever it is thank God that he back and everything would be as normal.

5-Ton Man Truck Course: Period: 8 days, to complete 500 mins of driving, 250 km mileage, night parking (completed), night driving, assessment (completed) and cross country

Tomorrow cross country at Lorong Asrama (Mandai), Thursday 100 mins of driving and night driving and that it, I complete my man truck course, Left DCP and OUV...and I have no idea what DCP is all about.

Here a video of 2008 Indonesian Idol who start as a street musician. Lazy to type much just watch it aite...His voice do really give me goosebumps...

Video of his 1st audition

Slacking Weekend

2009-01-18T21:38:00.002+08:00

So on Sat didn't went out. Basically stayed at home and help out on clearing some stuff at home. Watched Man Utd game, it has been quite awhile since I last watch a soccer game.

On Sun woke up in the afternoon, accompany mom to visit dad at CGH. He have to stay for a couple of days more. Went out with Hafiz thought of slacking with the rest but they went out to meet without telling us...so wth me and Hafiz roam the mall haha I was looking for cheap speaker,mouse,headphone and memory stick. Bought a mouse and speaker for my lappy. Next would be air ventilation padding if that what it called hahaha. Hafiz was looking at jean n cloths...pfft..next month I'm gonna go shop some cloth n jean...I can't remember when was the last time I shop for it.

Tomorrow going to be a very the long day. Morning or afternoon will be driving as per usual and there will be night driving. So my training would end at 8.45. Take the bus from Mandai ard 9.15 and around 10 board the bus at Yishun to Tampines, SO...I be reaching home around 11!!! Haiz....

DJ Lethal Skillz, DJ Fuzz and MC Moe collective Presents the Second Commercial Hip-Hop Collabo between Far East and The Middle East.
"Perempuan"

TP AND MUSIX!!

2009-01-16T23:08:00.002+08:00

13 Jan 09 Tuesday: Location Kaki Bukit Training Center : Driving test, test area Kaki Bukit/Ubi, result...PASSED!!! 6/10 demerit point. Woohoooo

14 Jan 09 Wednesday: Location Sembawang Camp. Type of training: Island wide. Journey - Changi Naval Base - Sembawang Camp on Land rover and 3-ton. My God I did 400 mins of driving and after that...BOOK OUT YEAH!!! Stay out for 2 weeks.

15/16 Jan 09: Location Mandai Camp 2 : Training 5 ton man truck training island wide. There still night driving, night parking and cross country. If you were to see a 5 ton truck on the expressway with a big P-plate(Driver on orientation) do look at the driver seat aite hehehe :p

So my driving course has been good so far. 8 days of 5 ton course then OUV Ford Everest and then TADAA!! Back to unit. Good news my platoon might be posting out to Sungei Gedung or Keat Hong Camp, staying out..hmmm..sound ok but far hmmm..

Dad warded again...haiz..hope he recover fast and mum won't have to worry too much. Sat and Sun would be spring cleaning day. Argghh!! Really need to clear some stuff...It my mum stuff aiyo..felt like throwing all the things out hehehe.

Ouh2 do enjoy the video below. 2 of my favourite youtube singer hehe. The Lake House (Jana Verdes) is kinda sweet and Brave Face (Melissa Polinar) is so touching.

The Lake House (Jana Verdes)
Fast forward to hear her sing, she talk alot about the song but that what I like about her hehe her expression ouh my...

Brave Face (Melissa Polinar)
I can relate myself to the song so yeah..boo hoo hehehe :p

Failure damn,Yuna, Left for Dead and Gaza

2009-01-11T17:45:00.005+08:00

Wednesday 7 Jan 09: Test at CCK near Kranji Camp, result....FAIL. WTF....stupid tester!!! Haiz..now I have to do my test at Kaki Bukit-Ubi Area...damn it!!!

Yesterday book out and we failure really need this book out felt like shit man, it felt like we in the prison with full of failure and regret. We so jealous at seeing the passes going for islandwide. So yesterday book out at 12pm take a nap and go out to pay bills and cut hair. So last mins plan, joining my driving camp mates to Newton to eat. Total people 14, total spent $110+ kenyang ke pe hahaha. It not that much food as we all on budget but we had a great time.

After that part ways with the rest as they going to Marina Barrage so I proceed to PS met with JY and Leonard then proceed to E2Max at Cineleisure met up with the rest (Garrick,Yat, Yat friend and Ishaq). Start playing LEFT FOR DEAD at 1am till 3am. Cool shit man, I'm so addicted to the game, looking forward to playing it again. We went for supper after that at Upper Thomson the Prata paradise fuhh...yummy hehehe

The Game that I'm currently addicted...it so infectious

Lastest favourite song. Introducing Yuna from Malaysia a very talented song writer and singer who make great English and Malay songs. Coming to perform at Esplanade on 15 March I note that down on my calender.

War seems to be never end

MUST SEE AND HEAR!!

Is it fair if there about hundreds of innocent life mostly children/women being killed and only one from the other side dies?Is it fair for them to break through and moving deeper to the strip where the defence force can only lauch mid length rocket launcher in which only 95% will hit the target??

Do your part by offering Do'a hope for peace and safety for man who are at war.

HAPPY NEW YEAR 2009

2009-01-01T17:19:00.003+08:00

Monday 29th Dec 08 Location Kaki Bukit Driving Center: 8am-6pm Height/Lashing and Parking test passed and Public Driving 2-8 completed

Tuesday 30th Dec 08 Location Lorong Asrama opposite Mandai Camp2: 8am-8pm Cross Crountry and Night Driving...cool shit hahaha have fun. It really bring back memories of our BMT outfield days. Hehehe

Wed 31st Dec 08: 8am-12pm. Sembawang Camp.....do nothing, yesh do absolutely nothing. Did not drive only about half of the group did. So book out, reach home around 2 and slept awhile then around 8 went to Eddie picnic, we ate, laugh n all till time to go home due to mum not feeling well and hell she make me worried shit as the door was wide open but the gate was lock and I didn't have the key. Thought she fainted or something and after a few mins of panic attack I found her at my neighbour house wau lau wei...

Thurs 1st Jan 09: 11am wanted to go to Habib Noh mosque but didn't go so we ate lunch at Tanjong Pagar Railway then proceed to Pusara Abadi Cemetery what a year to start off...It make me wanting to repent and start of the year clean.... Insyallah hope it be this way till the end of the year. Booking in by 2130 hrs like per normal...dis week schedule tomorrow go cross country again and on Sat most possibly be doing my last public driving lesson and going for my TP test on the 5th of Jan on Monday.

I'm not going to write ma new year resolution as most possibly I will not accomplish it so just follow the flow. Just hope everything will be find after I post back to my unit and enjoy my ns life for this yr and my family and friends be happy and healthy always. Till nxt time take care aite!!! Njoy ur holidays!!

Here the pix of the picnic at Pasir Ris park

HMMM...

2008-12-28T18:20:00.002+08:00

Hey yesterday was kinda fun day. 1st went out with Zac,Zurah and Eddie. Ate at EHub and wanted to watch movies but due to some emergency (siren) reach PS late and and I meeting ma friends later. So we just slack and walk around PS. I do wanna go Springfield again *wink2* At around 10 Zac sent me to Haji Lane where I met ma camp mate for sheesha. There was Amali,Nazirul,Ammar,Khai,Elly and Harris. Have fun seeing "Kemamm" and it was Nazi 1st time sheesha and I think he got addicted hehe he was so high yesterday and there we were sharing ghost stories, outfield and gossiping khakhaha. So we off around 2 and thnx Elly for sending me home. Do looking forward to go out with you guys again.

Today booking in time as per usual...Tomorrow I be doing height/lashing and parking test. On Tuesday there be cross country at Mandai..hmmm..looking forward for the convoy and using the night google. Hehehe Plan for New Year's Eve picnic with the K n D hmmm hope no other peoples ask me out, I so don't wanna reject them...if I have to then sorry aite I been book earlier hahaha.

Update real soon be back on Wed afternoon. CYA tata!! Take care all!

X'Mas n bck to camp

2008-12-25T18:21:00.003+08:00

Hey2...so this week didn't drive much. Drove on Tuesday and the rest do my parking all the way. My god it just felt yesterday and soon I test time. Friday will be at circuit for advance skill all day, Sat will probably drive and hit Public Driving Lesson 2-7. (Btw I need to hit 2-9 to go for my TP).

So on Wed Christmas Eve book out at around 12 and went out for dinner and town with friends. Have a great time spraying or should I say got spray by people. Back home by 3am.

So today spent time mostly at home updating stuff, music and watch Make It Happen. Just another dance movie just worth to watch it once. Doesn't really have much to say but it about living to your dream and sacrifice. Wanting to watch other movies but don't have time to.

Here a few pix of the event on Christmas Eve, view the rest of the pix at my shutterfly album. (Credit to Eddie)

P.S: "Well...Just read ur blog and...hmmm.."

Lalalala~

2008-12-21T18:55:00.003+08:00

A short summary of my life in a week:

Now I can tell people I drove a 3-ton truck..hahaha now I feel the king of the road...if you happen to notice a truck around Tamp, Kaki Bukit,Pasir Ris or Bedok do look at the driver seat hehehe. If you horn you get a F and a freaking loud horn from me hehehehe.

Yesterday movie were great and hilarious, now I think I just end my dream of riding anymore....sux to the core...Confirm next month, and then another month and another month?? How can you save money when every month there are things to pay and other stuff??

Ouh2..just feeling happy for you..feeling damn happy as you just throw all the hope, crush my heart, pretending to care and show concern to me and while I'm bz with my ns life you doesn't even care. Well guess life have to go on... Thinking of making a song title "Stop Toying with My Heart" Lalalalala~

Now I have a new lepak kakis *wink2* but hey....we shud lepak at other place...there only 1 and a half dae of freedom for me and there 3 group of frens...so how do I seperate myself to those 3?? Hmmm...

To all my friends if there anyone you think is heartless you should sang this song to them...hehehe cool shit. I don't really like Kanye West but I do admire his creativity and music work

Interesting week...Ben & Jerry's Chunk Fest

2008-12-08T18:12:00.004+08:00

Updates on my driving course : Hey I passed my Highway Code...yey! Got ma PDL. So now I'm driving land rover around Pasir Ris, Tampines (especially Temasek Poly hehehe cuci mata jap) Bedok and Kaki Bukit. Now I know it not easy driving, especially when ur vehicle can go to the max of 50 aiyo...slow poke...hehehe Tonight I'm booking in by 2130 hrs. So this week only left night driving, public road assessment and then there I go driving a 3-ton hehe...

06/12/08 : On Sat book out and went out wit Zac, Zurah and Hafiz went to Fort Caning.. here are some of the pix, u can see more of it at my shutterfly...NJOY!!!

Back to "BMT" life...this course sucks!!! To God I look upon...

2008-11-30T18:27:00.003+08:00

My spirit has gone somewhere else
I can’t talk to anyone because no one cares
They say they do, but hollow words put deeper scars then before
All I need is silence and loneliness
The walls are thin and weak
Too weak to keep out all the distress
So all I can do is watch it die

I close my eyes and picture myself somewhere else
But these fleeting thoughts break away from me before I realize it
The sky is always blue because someone out there is always crying
The clouds are colorless because there is always someone out there waiting for someone
Is it better to be alone? Maybe it for the best that way
I push people away because I know they are busy with their lives
I push them away because I don’t need anyone
I don’t need this false comfort

All I need is time for me
Away from all my worries and responsibilities
Away from the frame I am suppose to fit in
All the wrongness will disperse
Into my tears falls my hope
I am my only reassurance
Sadness is the only emotion keeping me here
Fragile thoughts breaking like the hour glass of time falling
The only who cares is me talking back to myself
Staring back from the mirror
My reflection is my only friend
Even when night falls the one holding me when I cry turns out to be me
Through the night I sit in the dark unable to sleep
My comprehension has vanished
These cold ghosts all around me no warmth anywhere

All I want to do is be myself
I want someone to listen to me other then the silence
I need more then a nice word because all that can’t erase the insults I hear
The pain I feel inside can never leave because it’s part of me
I’m all alone in a world of strangers waiting to cut me
I seek solitude and slumber

EMO-INK!! AURORA

2008-11-20T03:33:00.009+08:00

3.42am Thurs morning :

Should I or should I not. Life sucks. Big time!! Wish I can fly, fly away to the sky...Dancing in the twilight of the Northen Light. Be free, no hassle, no problem....nothing. Why is this happening?? What should I do to make it right? Have I not done enough??? Do I really need to change? Have I not done good deeds??? Please give me an answer....

Sometimes, helping others can be a thankless job. No good deeds goes unpunished.

How I wish I could close my eye and never wake up..
That how cowardly I am
This fury deep inside, waiting to unleashed
That’s all I can do is be in pain and inflict pain
Because I’m ignorant and everything is my fault
Sometimes I can’t breathe from all the resentment

There were times when I can no longer cry
How much more can I take before all hell break loose?
This rising anger waiting for victims
I can’t control these emotions
My mind seems to drift away
It wanders to days where I search for my sanity
I’m isolated

This emptiness I’ve build around me
The walls are slowly crumbling
I try to suppress the misery but the tears seem to fall on their own
Nothing has meaning anymore and I become bored so easily
Nothing can seem to put a smile on my face
I’ve abandon myself and if I could I would leave
Leaving without anyone knowing
Oh maybe no one will know...
Cos they just, don't care....

(P.S Making changes...hope it the best for me....)

Weekends!!!

2008-11-18T02:10:00.006+08:00

So my MSET course left 4 days left...and I'm selected for the best trainee in my group. Have a discussion and a survey with the HOD and he let out something that we should not know. We Transport Leader? hmmm...what he talking about... but it sound gd hahaha...

On Sat, Wan birthday celebration went well, at last there still a party. All goes to Nad for organising it well even after all the cock up things happen hehehe. The cake, the bbq the food...all is nice and super duper delicious. Hmmm..never have I went to this kind of celebration or celebrate it myself. Goods to see all the friends again and catch up things with each other.

The next day, went out to extend my hp contract accompanying by someone. Hahaha news spread fast...awww!! I feel like a superstar khakhakha. (I keep my mouth from now own if not you all b gossiping abt me ts3...) So yeah...had my line extended and get ma dad a LG phone...my god the phone really amaze me, from the previous LG phone that I own, this phone is really up there among the rest. Ard 8pm we the usual clan...(ok Katid is part of us now hehehe cos she have juicy gossips hahaha) went to eat at Arnold's at Pasir Ris Town Park..damn..Eddie bought the wrong set hahaha after that we went to Bishan Park, talk crap and acting our usual self and the farting and burps....oh my~~ what a pollution hehehe

Here a few pix, to get more do go to my shutterfly...pix credits to Zurah...

Sunday Arnold's!!

On Sat Wan's Bdae Party

MSET n Marina Barrage

2008-11-15T17:48:00.006+08:00

Hey, my MSET course was great, had my KAT(Knowledge Assessment Test),and I got 98/100 wow!! Hahaha overall it gd that I be getting a cert for it. So on Thurs nite went to Mad Jack with Zac, Zurah n Hafiz den meet up with Eddie and we head to Marina Barrage. So peaceful and nice scenery.... Here a few pix...

Hafiz gone crazy comparing his burger to Zac..
YEAH Blue Mountain Chicken Burger!!

Marina Barrage

Long lost firend and Varsity Fanclub

2008-11-09T16:30:00.006+08:00

Get my pay on Fri night and now it left a few dollars....haiz...RESPONSIBILITY3x!!! haiz.. So went out with Khatid and Eddie to Sim Lim and then Tong Seng to eat. Back to Khatid void deck and met Zac and Hafiz haha Khatid bring down her sch pix album..Mak ai selenge bacin pe. Especially Hafiz n Zac khakhakha....Eddie no comment hahaha.

3am on Sunday morning and going to sleep then suddenly...MY GOD!! MY HEART pump very the fast...haha don't know why. Just felt excited and all. A long time friend of mine was online and she msg me on msn. I forgot about you for awhile it not that I don't care or what it just that we lost contact for awhile. A friend who I can joke, talk crazy stuff and really make my day. She like a big sister to me eventhough she just 1 yr older but she acted like a small kid. Good things is, she remeber about me, about my problem and dilemma. Haiz..You saying I'm your very good friend really turn the night to brightness...k I'm talking crap but you know what I mean. It been awhile since anyone says that to me. I pray that you have a wonderful life ahead with you love one and success in life. Hope our friendship never ends and really hope of meeting you soon :p

It a season of break and unite. We all have know how big was New Kid On the Block was years ago...well it during my bro time. I don't really listen to them... Mine was those Backstreet Boys and all. So here a new up coming boy band which I didn't really expect. Heard their song title She's Lookin (For love in the club). Thought they were some black American groupie or something. After awhile of searching and no they are not. 5 white American boy who can sing, write song and dance. I'm really amaze by them and hook on to their song. Btw one of them acted in Spykid hehe. Here a few vid of them...

Varsity Fanclub - Future Love (Rehersal Video)
(I like the way they enter and dance around it...)

Varsity Fanclub - Zero/Future Love

Priscilla Ahn - Boob Song (Blooper)
(She just so lovely...haiz....)

2008-11-07T01:43:00.003+08:00

MSET course.....what a boring course BUT it a course where I could learn alot of things...just that my instructor sux!! Will talk more of it in my next entry. Btw watch Puaka Niyang Rapik on TV3, well it just a 1st episode, the following episode then we will know if it can match with Kekasihku Seru which to me the most freaking scary tv series ever till this day.

(Psstt...got Liyana Jasmay...arghh!! My luv haiz....khakhakha)

Everyday,

I wake up,
I run round the park,
I go to work,
Everynight I come home thinking of all I have but all I lost.
Even though love is gone,
I have so many chances for new love....but I'm so alone.
Taking them is foolish.
So I conclude that hope, is for the real fools.

If ignorance is bliss, then anyone with the brains is doomed to a life of depression

Dima Bilan - See What I See

IT ALL OVER, Stay in and M-set course

2008-11-06T00:06:00.004+08:00

Design Concept 5

Taadaa!!

Went out wit Hafiz,Zac,Eddie and Zurah follow by Katit at ECP. Ok it not that I don't wanna go out but I'm broke and going out with abit of cash feel sux!! Eddie next time tell me where we going!!! Ate at ECP and it HEAVEN!!! hehehe Eddie stop eating kerang k if u do wanna spend your CPF money try and cut it down aite...

Centralised Material Transport Line (CMTL) Mandai Hill Node Platoon 1

Hey!! I'm back and feeling great. Book in on Sunday afternoon 1430 hrs damn the feeling sux! That what you got if u got a effing PC and a platoon which made up of stubborn and crazy people hehehe. So on Mon we got scolded for no reason from the FSM...k now I know why they told us to enjoy as much as possible. After RO, I,Ham,Zainal and Ishaq went to the gym for workout. We spent abt 2 hrs over there but only me and Ishaq workout. Zainal hang on the phone and Hambali watch tv wth. On Tues got night out but didn't go anywhere, thnx to Rozaimi n Ruzaini for accompanying me. Basically We the trainees do nothing at camp except for "exercise" during the live run, sleep (now no more since the FSM is back), wash vehicle, do some sai kang and smoke our ass off hehehe. Actually I do enjoy staying in as I can save money and improve on my fitness.

Priscilla Ahn - Dream

I’m not asking for sympathy
I’m not asking for you to care
I don’t really care at all
About you
Somewhere deep inside me
A broken clock rewinds

Distorted shapes playing tricks
On my insane mind
I wanted to say that I’m not sorry
I wanted to say I hope you hurt
The things I couldn’t say

Go ahead all you people turn away
Laugh at something you can’t understand
I retreat into a corner into the deep blackness
I wanted to say that I hated you
All of the things I couldn’t say

All the things that can’t be heard
My words are like the whispers of the cold wind outside
I don’t feel anything but emptiness
My human emotions died long ago
I’m empty and broken inside
A soul waiting to die

(Thnx for those who care and tag and msg me and all. Do really appreciate it. Thnx for being there...or not hehe. Your care and concern do help and that what the true meaning of friends is. For others...you know yourself, don't only come and say shit and stuff only when I'm down and after that f* off... Friends meaning care and knowing what he/she been doing and up to ALL the time.)

I'm SICK, FRIENDS and LIFE SUX!!! Long entry

2008-10-25T19:50:00.007+08:00

So on Fri went for Deeparaya celebration at Chevron. We from Mandai Hill Camp the only Node that wear baju melayu wth...the rest was wearing civillian cloth but well, jiwa melayu pe hahaha. So have fun with the performance and all. The Malay dancer didn't really attract us...we enjoy the game and especially the bapok performance. Hahaha three guys dress up in baju kurung, dance and make dirty joke and all...All in all we did enjoy ourself....Will post the video and pix soon after I get it from Ishaq.

After that went home and slack wit Amal.....wei...kau uat ku jealous banget!!! Hahaha cool pix n really cool video. Ouh my...hmmph!!

Wake up this morning to a call. My dad admit to hospital...again...haiz...Apparently he had trouble breathing and shivering at work so he went to the hospital. No...not again...why must it be during this difficult times this thing happen. Really kill of the dae...now myself feeling sick...Money?? There goes my saving to buy new bike...all gone to bills....What a bro who is selfish bastard and also immature...Heard his converstion with my mum, how do I wish I could wack him...Been all trouble and all he have bring to this family is trouble...

This coming weeks I be staying in, my dad not sure when will he discharge and my mom will be all alone and can't really depend on my bro to take care of her...To ask to stay out?? Army?? Nah...don't think so....

Life do really sux big time, trying to change myself to be better but hit with all this obstacle. Yeah a few of you might not believe me saying this as I'm always the one that motivate others, open up their minds and be joker so that I be able to brighten up their day. Well of all the happy-go-lucky side of me...deep down I do suffer from great depression and confusion in life. I do lend my ears and shoulder to other to lean on but myself still not able to get it in return.

Like my mum says...you don't need friends to live but HE the only one that can make you live. Meaning without HIM you can call yourself dead as he the provider of everything and he give you hope in life. I do make mistake that I really regret. Friends so far there no friends who really think of life and the future, what I mean in future is afterlife. They say that all money in the world can't buy happines but money do can change someone life and how I wish I can get it. To earn it is another thing to prosper with it is hard. Now I'm planning my future, and it a big obstacle that I'm facing.

I do really thank GOD at where I am now in army. To be able to get 2 license andafter I ORD the prospect of me getting job is high. Can work in logistic and earn afew $K to get my private dip and open up a business. That been my plan for all this years and hope it will happen before I reach 30.

So I have set my goals and aim in life, just hope and pray it all will become reality and I know it will be hard. I will not spend my time wasted with other stupid things and sorry if you all don't see me again as I think there nothing much you all give me in return and fit to call yourself friends. Maybe just I know you, you know me that all....

Army Life Update

2008-10-21T21:17:00.006+08:00

Hey hello!! It been awhile since I blog. Well lazy, tired and no mood actually. Don't know why this few days been feeling different. Thanx for the mates at camp to cheer me up.

It have been almost amonth at Mandai and I have feel at home over there. Ouh for your info my vocation is driver or in army terms Transport Operator. I'm getting my class 3 and 4 for free!! Yeah. I'm in 1st Transport Battalion 6th Division Centralise Material Transport Line Mandai Hill Node Platoon 1. Hahaha well easy to say my unit is at Mandai Hill Camp, and my company is CMTL. I'm tag to 4SIR at Lim Chu Kang Camp, my previous camp where I did my BMT. So life as a driver....sux!!! Well how do you feel going to camp and most of the time you will be sleeping, talking crap, going canteen n walk around?? Sux right...hahaha well that what we been doing since we have not start our driving course.

Got a bad news...well actually kinda ok for me as I will be able to save some money and don't have to wake up early everyday. I'm staying in starting next week on Tuesday. Will be having my night off on Tues and Thurs night. Booking in on Sun night before 2200 hrs and booking out on Fri night. On the 6th Oct I be going for M-set course at Sembawang Camp. Hate that camp...sucks big time!!! My driving course will probably start in Dec or Jan nxt yr...haiz...

~Some people are born rich.lucky and can live life to the fullest. No problem at all be it family affair or financially. Try getting yourself in their shoe and see if you can handle it. Just be happy with what you have and think for others too~

Sepi movie review

2008-10-09T22:59:00.001+08:00

From the director of "Cinta" bring you "Sepi" A story of three different love stories that is connected to one accident. The film had the elements of intellectual, spiritual and emotional conflict. With great actor and actress such as Afdlin Shauki and Vanidah Imran which won award for best actor and actress respectively, it made the movie more heart felt and strong with the burning aura of love fill up the air. Accompanying the scene with great songs sang by Gita Gutawa and Yuni Shara to name a few. It probably the most beautiful cinematography ever screened. My take of the movie, it similar to "Cinta" but of the structure of the storyline that make the difference. It a really nice movie to watch, even though it came out on June and I able to watch it a few days ago, I'm really glad that I able to watch it and it tell me that Malay filem industries is picking up pace with other countries such as Thailand and Indonesia which make great movie. So guys do watch it like, especially with your love ones.

Next review I'm Not Single

JUST DANCE!!!!

2008-10-09T14:21:00.002+08:00

Hey yo! Got a new layout, nice izzint it? Haha anyhoo this week I'm kinda bored. Have to clear my leave and I have no plans. Hmmm...anyhoo going out soon, going to find some stuff later.....ALONE!!! hahaha

Btw here a few video that I would like to share. Cool dance video...My god...it so sick!!! NJOY!!

Slacking week and more to come!!!

2008-10-04T20:16:00.005+08:00

A'kum...so I be having a 3 days leave this coming week and I'm wondering what to do...Most possibly be going out Raya with my family or doing other things. What a boring week at camp. Nothing much to do and heard that my course would probably start abt 2 months time. My..... it good that we stay out but then need alot of transportation money...now how I wish I get Raya money hehehe well it help abit....

So after my IPPT test at Sembawang camp yesterday, reach camp and there they were. 4SIR...theres a 6 Division games day so all of them are involve. 4SIR won alot of the games and I'm very proud of it further more, most of the games are won by my Charlie Company...yeah!! So get to see them all, and they really happy at seeing me and the rest. After awhile talking, I can see the pain and sadness in their face. They really look down and lifeless, they told me how the training at camp and all...now I felt sad for them...Just hope you guys able to endure and get the fun out of it....atleast try aite....

So reaching home went out again watching movie..watched The House Bunny with Zurah, Zac n Eddie. I didn't like the idea of watching The House Bunny but after that I really thanx Eddie...it was really funny and good. Overall good actor and actress and gd comical lines and there a morale to the story of it.

Next would be KAMI the movies...anyone going JB? Help me buy the dvd/vcd??? Pleash...

WEI!!!! DAH RAYA!!! TAPI JNG OVER NJOY!!!

2008-09-30T21:00:00.006+08:00

This year raya, doesn't really feel like celebrating. Being that I'm in NS and doesn't really have much time at visiting relative and friends house and also didn't get to fast as much as the previous year....It the end of the month of Ramadhan and let us pray that we able to see it again...Insyallah...

"Kepada sahabatku, inginku menyusun sepuluh jari memohon maaf dari hujung rambut ke hujung kaki, seandainya terkasar bahasa mahupun sengaje atau pun tidak, halalkan makan minum, semoga berkekalan persahabatan kite hingga ke akhir hayat. Dengan itu ingin ku mengucapkan
SELAMAT HARI RAYA AIDILFITRI!!
Maaf Zahir dan Batin..."

Here a few video that I like to share with you guys...hope you enjoy it!!

Al-Asma-ul-Husna

Laylatul-Qadr

Takbir

EAGLES!!!

2008-09-22T21:43:00.006+08:00

Really miss my company line, my platoon mates and everyone over there. Got a msg from them, back to reality and back to hell. Haiz... Btw now I know why driver mostly are fat khakhakhka

"Click photo to enlarge"

"From this day to the ending of the world, but we in it shall be remembered. We few, we happy few, we GOLDEN EAGLES. For he that shed his blood with me today shall be MY BROTHERS!!" (Some Eagle's pledge or something)

TOWARDS GREATER HEIGHTS!! AAAUUUAAA!!!

Back to reality...

2008-09-22T05:29:00.004+08:00

Sunday....a boring Sunday...didn't get to go out with the rest as I'm stuck at home painting....damn...the house need a new colour...and I swear I gonna paint it all next year... So paint the house after buka watch soccer and prepare stuff to bring back to camp. Ouh man...I guess everyone will be draggin their feet or should I rather say boots...hahaha So left 2 hrs left for me 2 hours to book in and another half an hour to know my fate at being in what vocation for another 1yr plus of my freaking army life. Well I should know...rifleman..yeah...playing with our wife, I mean the rifle...hehehe haiz...

So hopefully be booking out by Fri. So anyhoo take care my friends...study hard play hard and don't miss me hahaha. There two video that I wanna share with you guys. One is a ghost video caught on CCTV at Raffles Place and another is a Honda Ad cool shit.... NJOY!!

KAMI

2008-09-20T20:42:00.004+08:00

Start ask a small conversation and end up at being friends...

Location: Tampines MRT Plateform:

Ringtone " Mawar, mawar, mawar khayalan..." "Ehk elo oit kau kat mane ni?" Damn frustated with R'mat... Sitting across 2 young and trendy girls giggling...hmmph... ""Kau ikut ke tak ni, aku dah otw".... After putting down my phone. One of the girls asked... "Awk, tu lagu Laila's Lounge kan?" I was like...ermm..you talking to me?? Hahaha. "Erm yeah...y?" After a long chat now I know...They both a Malaysian and having their holiday here and they didn't expect the song to fly off till here. Hey music is universal.... So yeah off I went to Bugis alone knn... and meet them again...yeah they were giggling again...the giggling twins...haiz...

One of them " Hey we met again..." And I was like..."yeah...what a small world"...She hit back at me..."Spore small mah"....(Wah kene kn aku plak) So we introduce ourselves. Widayu and Juliana Roseanna...hahaha one a indon-chi and another swedish indon...hahaha age 18 but look younger haha. R'mat came over and wau lau...kacau daun betul ar. So R'mat step being the tour guide. We went Esplanade, Fort Canning, Arab Street and finally back home. Ouh they stayed at CASAFINA at Bedok South there at Widayu aunt place... I c...ouh nice place...I found out that Ju stayed at hartamas wah near to ma auntie KL house..hehe :p

Anyhoo they introduce me to a indie jazzy acoustic band called Estrella. Nice and now I'm hook already.

All of this KAMI things really hit on us...KAMI here and there and it really touch on the topic of young teenagers and what song they listening to. Of all the family background and hardship, music is one of the way that can combat the feeling of depression and hatred and brought us to our senses and bond with our friends.

From Kami The Series to Kami The Movies. The final chapter. Ouh my I have long been waiting for this movie.

Teenage movie “KAMI” follows a group of five friends as they squeeze in as much fun and reckless abandonment on their road to self-discovery before entering a new stage in their lives – higher education.

Lynn is a form five student who juggles her studies while helping her mother at their food stall and hangs out with Ali,Abu, Sofie, and Adii. Although they have made her part of their circle, Lynn is holding back a dark past from her buddies. Unknown to them Lynn and her mother had moved from their small town home to start afresh in the city away from a persistent small-time drug dealer, Boy, whom Lynn used to run errands for to gain extra pocket money.

To complicate matters, Lynn writes under the pseudonym Teka Teki for her own, well known fanzine called KAMI and has recently contributed a scathing write-up on Ali’s band in a local music magazine.

As she struggles to keep her secrets under wraps, Lynn soon learns that they are all hiding something from each other.

Vector-ing and Spore Import Nights

2008-09-19T20:01:00.006+08:00

Yesterday went to terawih at Istighfar and while lepaking with Hafiz, Umar and Zul we saw Fadly a.k.a Ustaz. Ouh my god, I last met him was during our primary school days. Well he went to Dunman and even in the same class with some of my Dunmanite friends. So we sat down and chat and he told us alot of stories. Around midnight then we went back home. He really change haha change for the better that is and that good.

So went back and did some vectoring, well I'm really lack of idea and this are a few of the design that I have made using some people design for reference. Well soon or later I will have my own original copy.

Ouh btw Singapore Import Nights is back and it on from 18-21 Sept catch it at S'pore Expo aite..btw for those fasting, look at the cars not the gerls k hehehehe :p

Fast and Furious 2009 Trailer

Concept Idea 1

End result

Concept Idea 2

Finished!!

4 hours after sahur and FINALLY!!!
TADAA!!

Vector-ing n Pop N Lockn

2008-09-19T01:47:00.002+08:00

I'm so into vector art. Especially on retro vector and vintage vector. So I spent my night waiting for sahur learning as much as I can. So I download a few brushes and watch some tutorial. Well it be much more nicer doing it using Adobe Illus but well Photoshop will do it for this mean time.

Concept Idea

Idea Sketch

TAADAA!!

Still more to come...nxt projex RETRO. Ouh btw njoy the vid below, which I consider the dopest Pop n Lockn battle... CYA TAKE CARE!!

Thousand Years is way too long

2008-09-16T03:02:00.003+08:00

"Sesetengah lelaki nampak macam cukup bertuah, tapi sebenarnya tuah takde kene mengene dengan semua ni, yng perlu ialah keikhlasan, keperihatinan dan konfiden untuk membuka pintu peluang, sedikit keyakinan boleh membawa anda pergi jauh"

Aji "Ketahuan" Groovy baybeh!! hahaha

Thousand Years.mp3 -

Saturday Night Dempsey Hill

2008-09-15T18:32:00.004+08:00

Trip to Dempsey Hill. Zurah, Zac,Me,Eddie n Hafiz. Decided to go there for Ben N Jerry but too bad it closed. It my 1st time and there alot of pubs, shops and antique shops. So after that went to Newton. Yeah, had my kerang and mutton soup with longan drinks yum2...hahaha

Dempsey Hill

Here a vid that I wanna share with you guys...yeah there been alot of acoustic cover here and there hehe well just keep your comment to youself. Btw must watch ok, very nice the song and.....very pwetty too hehe feeWeet!!

Presenting Melissa Polinar "One of A Kind"

12th Sept 2008 POP-O

2008-09-14T14:38:00.004+08:00

Thursday 11 Sept 2130hrs begin the 24km Route March.

From: Lim Chu Kang Camp 1 (Old Lim Chu Kang Road) to Ama Keng Road (4km)

From: Ama Keng Road to Neo Tiew Rd (Bollywood Veggies) (D'Kranji Farm Resort)/Neo Tiew Cres (Sungei Buloh Nature Park) (4km)

From: Neo Tiew Cres to Kranji Way ( Kranji Reservoir Pk H.S of Kranji Beach Battle) (4km) Rest for 45 mins light refreshment( Sneakers bar, banana and 100 plus)

From: Kranji Way back to Neo Tiew Cres (4km)

From: Neo Tiew Cres back to Ama Keng (4km) (3hrs of rest. 1hr of sleep, another hr of breakfast and a nother hr of stretching n rest.

From: Time 0700 hrs Ama Keng reach half way at (2km) mark and wait for further instruction to proceed into camp.

From: Time 0745 hrs 2km mark proceed another (2km) march into camp.

Charlie Company leading the way. Time 0830hrs

"Ladies and Gentleman, bringing you our trained SOLDIERS!! POP-O!!"

Ordering of Kuih Raya

2008-09-13T23:36:00.003+08:00

http://www.kuihraya.bravehost.com/

Guys, I'm helping out one of my friend to promote is website . So if you guys want to order kuih raya just go to his website aite. Alots of kuih, ouh and yeah they even do delivery, so feel free to visit his site and make your choice aite.

Bookin in!!! ARGHH!!!

2008-09-07T14:56:00.002+08:00

Kevin Michael ft Wyclef - It Don't Make Any Difference To Me

Kevin Michael with Beat Box - Umbrella
Cool izzint it with the beat box and all

Hairie - Dambaan Unplugged (Cover)
midknightwira

Yesterday night went out with my family, Shasha, Cik Surya, Eddie and Syawal. We went to see the track of the F1 and then head off to Geylang to let Shasha see the light. She love it, can't stop pointing at the lights and all. After that head off to Rahimah and back home.

So booking in at 9pm. Sleeping at 9.30pm for the muslim and waking up at 4am then by 7.30 1st parade and then start off with the IPPT. Hope I past this time round. Planning of break fast with the ITE mates and CPW. I try to plan it out aite. During my block leave we meet up.

And to Bulan, I hope to meet you during my holiday. Hope you are free and mayb we can talk things out. Just hope for the best and whatever it is, life have to go on and cheer up aite. I will try and you should too. It not the end of the world...

Saturday relaxing day...

2008-09-07T02:48:00.003+08:00

Chris Cendana : I'm Yours (Cover)

Afgan : Sadis

Al-Ghazali : The Alchemist of Happiness

Exploring the life and impact of the greatest spiritual and legal philosopher in Islamic history, this film examines Ghazali's existential crisis of faith that arose from his rejection of religious dogmatism, and reveals profound parallels with our own times. Ghazali became known as the Proof of Islam and his path of love and spiritual excellence overcame the pitfalls of the organised religion of his day. His path was largely abandoned by early 20th century Muslim reformers for the more strident and less tolerant school of Ibn Taymiyya. Combining drama with documentary, this film argues that Ghazali's Islam is the antidote for today's terror.

2 Weeks of hell!!!

2008-09-07T01:24:00.003+08:00

Outfield was a wake up call. We stayed in an area called Unum. It much of a forested area, The disadvantage of it is that it soil is muddy but the tree which is dense help to cover us from sunlight so it not that heaty. Btw Tekong temperature is about 2 degree Celsius higher then S'pore. At night, don't say I think it 5 degree Celsius lower then S'pore. Damn freaking cold man. Plus, there no mosquito hahaha. Anyhoo Unum located at the northern part of Tekong and the stories goes, that area use to be a place of malay villages and not to forget all the black magic, bomoh dukun and all were from that area. Anyhoo we didn't encounter anything just that a company mate stumble upon a tombstone and while we were training in the forest we came across a vast which contain urn in it.

Apart from that the highlight of the outfield.

25-31 August
Mon-Fri 5 days 4 night at Unum

Doing BAC - which we have a race. We have to baby crawl, back crawl, leopard crawl n back crawl again. All in a muddy field. And the fastest platoon get to....drink a ice cold water!!! What the hell...
Wild boar enter our area and begin roaming for food. Actually it look more like a pig then a wild boar but damn it was really big and I mean really big and fat. I think the meat can feed the whole platoon of a total strength of 40+
Digging shellscrap(I think that how it spell hehe) and fire tranch - I dig the shellscrap which is kinda shape of a grave just that it knee length deep for 4 hrs. From 12pm till 4 pm. It was damn tiring with many of us suffering from heat rash. Till night time our section haven't even start digging the fire tranch.

Friday

On Friday we went to FIBUA village which was located at southern part of Tekong. Over there we learn about Urban Ops. Think playing the CS is easy, try doing it real time hahaha but have fun there. That evening aroud 6pm we went for a tactical march towards San Yong Kong. I still can't forget the scenic view of the Dogra Bridge. Which have a story of WW2 behind it and a river just below the bridge. We were able to see the sunset which really amaze me. I had never seen a sunset which is so beautiful before not even from the mainland. San Yong Kong, a reclaim land which made up of rubbish. I mean deep in the soil that is. We were happy because that night we able to shower, sleep in a stretcher like bed and sleep comfortably.(It was damn cold really damn cold).

Saturday

We went for our Grenade throwing, it was fun and interesting. Then back to FIBUA village where we learn more of the urban ops. Btw the FIBUA village consist a couple of shop house which is empty. So that night we were to sleep in one of the house. I and Guna we slept at the entrance of the house and we were able to see the stars. It really beautiful, my sergant says we can't see so much stars anywhere back in mainland and guess it true.

Sunday

BIC which we have to leopard crawl, back crawl,leopard crawl and back crawl again, throw a dummy grenade and wack the enemy board with our rifle. While were are crawling a gpmg ( machine gun) firing live bullet on top of us. And that evening we went for a 4km route march back to Tekong Ferry Terminal and back to camp.

3 Sept Wednesday

3rd Sept we have a games day and we leading the scoreboard. Sadly we have to postpone because of bad whether. We won soccer, tug of war and tentage decoration. 3 more games to go and I can;t wait to find out what the mystery gift is.

4 Sept Thursdays

At night 10pm we go for a 16km route march at ECP. We walk frm car park B till Bedok jetty and then back again. Confirm we did not do 16km, we did more then 16km. Freaking hell.... My god the march was ok just that we felt tired and sleepy. Really we were like going to close our eyes but our legs still keep on walking. We got disturbed by civilian hehe but we do act garang in front of some people hehehe.

5 Sept Friday

Reach camp at 4am do some area cleaning and have our sahur and slept for 2 hrs then at 8am we do a parade rehearsal with our field pack on and all. Damn shag man and I break ma fast in the afternoon really can't stand it anymore. Lucky the SOC was cancel cause if have, we surely can't make it. So we went back on Fri night. 9pm book out.

That sum of all the week activites and the whole week were like a tekan session for us, everything we do. they not happy with us...well we have just to endure. Like they say, "Not happy? Lan lan suck thumb" haizz...

Selamat Berpuasa Dibulan Ramadhan.(The Present)

2008-09-02T12:31:00.005+08:00

Hey guys, Selamat Berpuasa Dibulan Ramadhan. Banyak2kn amal ibadah ye...

So Ijust got back from Tekong on Sun 6pm. Booking out yesterday morning and today booking back in. Haiz...should be back in camp at night but HQ says that we have long time never run. Wth!!! Now booking timing 1500 and that about 2 hrs away. Haiz... Anyhoo lots of shit happen during the outfield. I will post abot it later. For now have to endure a couple of days to go. Tomorrow Games Day there will be AEROBIC GIRLS!! Waulau fasting ler.... POP on 12 Sept Friday. WOOHOO!!

Yesterday is history. Tomorrow is mystery. Today is a gift. That's why they call it, The Present.

Many people will walk in and out of your life. Only true friends will leave footprint in your heart. To handle yourself use your head. To handle others use your heart. If someone betray u once, it their fault. If someone betray you twice then it your fault. Great mind discuss idea, average mind discuss events. Small minds discuss people. He who loses money loses much, He who loses a friends loses more. He who loses faith loses all. Beautiful young people are accident of nature, beautiful old people are work of art. Learn from the mistake of others, you can live long enough to make them all yourself. Friends, you and me, you brought another friend and then there were three. We started our group, our circle of friends, and like that circle there no beginning or end.... Yesterday is history. Today is a gift, Tomorrow is a mystery.

Nidji ft Afgan - Sudah

Afgan - Padamu Kubersujud

A week of suckyness...!!!

2008-08-23T17:30:00.002+08:00

Hey guys Im back...haiz...wat a week, lot of things happening n lots of shit too.

My schedule : I book out on Fri nite, n bookin in back Sat nite 9.30. Sun be running for the Army Half Marathon at Marina den bck home and at night bookin in back. On Mon off I go to Tekong for a period of 7 days 6 night of having fun diggin, sleepin on grass, njoying being suck by mosquito and do shit stuff...Not to mention the place dat I be staying wow...Hungry Ghost sure they all welcoming us...Cool or wat....Wow looking forward to it.....HAIZZ....

Watever it is...looking at the bright side, POP abt 3 weeks time n there still 16 n 24km route march, IPPT and SOC. Hope everything goes smoothly.

Anyhoo just wanna share a few vid. I wan to find a gerl who can sing n play the guitar...anyone??? Hehehe ouh2...Peterpan just release a album. Sadly they going to break up. My all time fav Indo band. NJOY!!

Im starting to fall in luv with dis gerl...

GOOD BYE

2008-08-10T03:45:00.004+08:00

Celebrate the Battalion Annivesary at Jurong Central Park, have a games day on that day and we book out from there at 4pm. We lose haiz..there goes our extra night at home but we did well and we all deserve a pat on the back. Didn't do much at home just surf the net and came across lotsa nice music and video.

Been really down because of something and I really have made up my mind..
Just hope you can accept it and forgive me....

So many years, so many memories, so many up and down
Since the day that we chat, sms, meet and call
You the one in my heart
The birthday cake, the park the bbq,the day we went out with my friend
The moon and the star
I treasure you deeply
I tried to be brave but sorry guess im weak
As weak as you can imagine
There are things that u don't know
I do wanna be more then a friend
I do wanna be by your side
I do wanna be your dance partner
I do wanna be all yours, day and night
Guess all this while I don't have the courage to do all the things that I have plan
Lotsa of plan that I really wanna do...like
Going to the Singapore Flyer, have a picnic at botanical garden
Doing stupid and funny stuff together
Pinch, smack, tickle you and etc
Ride my bike and go places that we never even know the street name exist
Go to concert and have a great time dancing at whatever event there is
Sit at the beach the whole night stars n moon gazing
Guess I dont have the time to do all that now
Knowing that I do read ur blog but you say things that I dont understand
Or mayb Im just being paranoid
Thnx your mum for whatever gd things she say abt me
I do take lot of years to get to noe you
Well to get into a relationship you have to know that person really well
All this while I thought I knew you but I guess I was wrong
Or maybe I take my time too long to get to know you
But still at the end of the day
The big question who am I to you
Do I have to say the 3 word to know what am I to you
There are undefine boundary of the unwritten law
To me to say it, it really hard
Thnx for being there for me, thnx for your care and concern, thanx for everything
We be friends and friends will always be friends
Just that we each have our own path
You go my way and I go mine
If we do came across just hope you remember me and do say hi
Today will be yesterday and tomorrow will be today
If you care and have a feeling for someone, let that person go
The more time you wait the more time you waste

Do forgive me...

If I Say - Ramzi & Ash King

Music Vid!! Recommended..

2008-08-08T23:41:00.003+08:00

silakan puas sudah disuruh
nyatakan mimpi yg tak pernah lengkap
lakukan apa saja yang kamu mampu
sudahlah biar yg telah lalu
lapaskan kesemua yg pernah ada
alihkan kalau ada masih tertinggal

cukuplah kalau
beratnya ada
disamping kamu
terlalu

andainya aku tau
ertinya disuruh
semua yg pernah minta

tibalah waktu untuk bersedar
kerana giliran sudah menyeru
yg pasti yg panggil itu suci lagi
berilah sedikit untuk aku
hilangkan rasa hati yg tak percaya
biarkan dia yg bilang jgn lagi

andainya aku tau
ertinya disuruh
semua yg pernah minta
andainya aku cari
dimana dituju
semua yg pernah jumpa

jangan minta yg lebih
kerana tiada yg memberi
yg ada cuma mungkin kamu disini

oh tunjukkanlah aku yang benar
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This song was slow and sweet. Can be found in LOST IN LOVE OST. Indonesian movie which is filmed in Paris, France. The movie were starred by RICHARD KEVIN and PEVITA PEARCE.

The End...Sinderela

2008-08-02T20:40:00.007+08:00

Hello guyz...so this week pass by really fast.

On Tues 29 July went for 8km route march. We went 4km in a very fast pace. 5 mins break and went on another 4km....My god most of us felt like falling out but we endure and we complete it in 1hr 13mins...WTF....We were like damn shag and really push us to the limit. We really break all the company route march timing. Nxt route march will be a battallion level so if we were to lead...the other company will surely die hehehe.

Thurs did the SOC and I got a problem clearing the Jacob Ladder hahaha while going down it take a few mins for me to go down but after a few tries I did ok and should able to clear it.

Spent 2 days doing Individual Marksman Training and it on Wed and Fri. Well I doesn't really think much of the IMT what I hope was that I able to shoot and get pass but....I get full mark. Only 2 people in my platoon got full mark. Ouh my...what a day...1stly I have to be the Platoon IC for that day, then I got the nickname of Marksman...then for the last parade I'm the 1st recruit who did the reporting strength and all those shit... Well it really make my day as I prove myself that I am capable at something.

So the tv series Sinderela end and not the best ending ever...but what Zoe said during the last few scene really make me think. Just sharing it with you guys.

"Dalam hidup cinta boleh datang dan pergi. Ketawa kerananya, senyum kerananya, menangis semahunya...sakit...
Mula dengan persahabatan, segelintir pula cuma sedar bila ia hilang..Semata-mata untuk rasa dihargai dan percaya cintanya untuk selama-lamanya.
For some of us finally we realise that life is not a fairy tale and we need to start over. Demi sampai impian tak salah untuk kita berkorban bila mana hati kita rapat menghadapi realiti. Tangis...tangis semahunya tapi jangan biarkan hati kita terus rebah. Sejauh mana kita kenal hati budi seseorang, kita tetap tak boleh buat penilaian. In life we have to learn to let go and keep on moving. The more you wait the more time you waste. Bermula dengan hati, angan dan mimpi, Sebesar mana pun kedudukan kita, segagah prinsip mampu goyah. Because of love because we human beings, mudah lemas bila cintanya lemah, kita harus kuatkn hati, percaya naluri just admit it lafazkan cintaku mahukn dia...Hanya Tuhan yang tahu penghujung hidup kite...Tapi kita tahu permulaan cinta. Terpulang pada kita untuk buat pilihan either we win or lose...." Zoe - Sinderela

"Bau - Warkah OST Sinderela"

2 days back at home!!!! Yahoo!!! Haiz...IT SUNDAY!! Haiz...

2008-07-27T15:46:00.003+08:00

Hello peeps, training had been tough and was sick for 2 days so I have to do shit stuff during those 2 days. Looking forward for this coming week training as we be doing more interesting stuff. Fri nite after booking out went to Simpang Bedok wit the Dunmanite...thnx mcm krg tau je aku kempunan nk mkn kat Simpang Bedok. Hehehe Sat spent most of the days at home beside going out with Hafiz to buy some stuff. At nite Remi ajak gi Ignite Music Festival at RP thnx the last act was Electrico..but for the other local band not bad really...then back home and out again with R'mat...oit thnx ar ehk... and btw say hi again to Rini hehehe :p thnx for everything hahaha you know I know...dah dapat, share ok...we go there again next time...

Booking in time 2100...going out from house 1800+ arghh...haiz...anyhoo guys feeling different lately...dont know y...hmmm...orite nothing much to type see you guys nxt week and hopefully get to book out on Fri night again...pray for me aite guys hahaha bye2!!

FLU!!! BMT!!!

2008-07-20T14:23:00.004+08:00

Hey guyz im back...well not feeling well...Got a flu and sore throat...hopefully I can recover fast as starting from tomorrow there be alot of physical training...There be route march and SOC training and all..

Sorry can't join you guyz for the movie...I do really want to see it but guess I be seeing it some other time...

There a few movie that I want to watch...namely, Hellboy 2, Dark Knight, Wedding Daze and really looking forward for The Mummy 3 and The X-Files....

In grand "X-Files' manner, the film's storyline is being kept under wraps.
(Just hope it won't flop hehe)

Lately I been thinking about my future....What will I do after NS....Do really thought of taking up part-time studies at Kaplan or some other private sch....but not sure of the course. Well guess there still time for me to decide and hopefully when I do....it will be the right decision...Now slowly Im handling things well.

This is a song for those who really miss the people they love when they away.

Title : Without You
Sang by : Chris Cendana

Sign says 5 miles
and I feel it's my fault this time
that you're walking away to get on a plane
and fly away

you'll be on time
and I'll be waiting on standby
Till the next time we fly
or text something like
"goodbye... I'll see you next time"

No dry eyes tonight
When I'm reaching over to you
To find I'm missing you
I'll just hold on tight
And close my eyes
Cause I can't see myself without you

We'll be fine
I just wish I could turn back time
And know the dim lights would mean
You'd at home with me
But I will know next time

No dry eyes tonight
When I'm reaching over to you
To find I'm missing you
I'll just hold on tight
And close my eyes
Cause I can't see myself without you

The path is lonely
As the labor seems more like pain
My soul is heavy
Waiting to see you again
Again

No dry eyes tonight
When I'm reaching over to you
To find I'm missing you
I'll just hold on tight
And close my eyes
Cause I can't see myself without you
No I can't see myself without you

You'll be on time
And I'll be waiting on standby

Maybe !!! BMT!!!

2008-07-13T17:35:00.002+08:00

Maybe

Everyday I thought about it
Holding on, I was crazy about you
All I knew is the way you had me blown away
Everytime I saw your pictures
I would be procrastinating

Maybe I wasn't the type that she wanted
Maybe I coulda had her, but I was tricked
Didn't make that decision no
And all I got is
Maybe she woulda been my baby
She coulda been
If I had said, "Baby, what's your name? "
Now all I got is maybe, maybe

Maybe I'm crazy to let you go
Maybe I never thought I wouldn't see you no more
I had the chance
I let her passed
Now all I got is maybe

Seems that I lost my chance with you
Clue that I wanna be the one you run to
And what if you got away
I'll see you another day
And now I don't
That I wish I woulda acted
And I was like

Starting my BMT. Now I have to fight for my place with the other bmt guys...Feeling great...hoping to stay...but then...hoping to post out too...Well the time will come...just have to take a day at a time...Haiz....

CHARLIE COY.....TOWARDS GREATER HEIGHT AAAUUAA!!! the ELITE!!

2008-07-06T02:50:00.004+08:00

Hey peeps...3 weeks have past...and Im learning to be a "man" hahaha real man that is. There a down and up during the 3 weeks and im starting to njoy life in army. Theres the morning exercise and run...the chicken that we ate almost everyday....the cleaning of our bunk and area...the night snack we ate at the parade square...we all have adapt to the army life. Looking forward for more things to happen...im finally feeling at home at camp. Hoping not to get post out. Only problem is my IPPT and the route march....I did badly....it feel damn terrible till something happen to me...the emotion that I felt...I really feel.....haiz..hope I did better the nxt time...Those moment I will really pray never to happen again...

And for you, if you ever reading this....get your mind straight, be honest and sincere...after reading...It make my day more terrible....and my smile and laughter for the day just a mask of the feeling that I really felt...I do hope for the best but...to think of it...I live as a normal person, take a day at a time and pray for me and my family well being...to tell you honestly...family is my main priority...other things can be done after my 2 years...

Girls are like butterfly

2008-06-06T00:31:00.005+08:00

Usually I will delete all of ma previous post, but starting now, I will save them all. Left 6 more days before I be going off. I know it not a big deal, not like I be away and not coming back home. For your info, I be staying at the same camp for 2 yrs straight provided that I get to go out when I get my posting. It felt like just yesterday I graduate, just like yesterday I got a job, just like yesterday I was counting down to my NS...it not 1 month left it 6 freaking days left. Be gone for 2 week of confinement and training and total of 13 week before my pop. They says that when you enter ns, it is when boys become a man....Well to me actually it is. Just a month when I enjoy working and have my own pay, just a blink I become the hope of the family. With my dad having to retire early, all the needs of the family, I have to take care of it. With my pay I dont really think I can afford it but abit of it it will lift the burden on my dad. Hopefully he will get a job and hope my brother will change and help the family. Have a talk with and online friend..which I really think I have told her all of ma life story...not even someone who is a special friend to me know all about my family problems. Well thnx for hearing me out, and at this point of time I am really confuse and felt useless. To my faith the only place that I can pray and hope for the best...

"Girls are like butterfly"

Look at a butterfly, aren't they beautiful? When our eyes being captive by them, we become happy and feel good. Almost all who been mesmerise by them will smile upon seeing this wonderful creature. They bring colours to the nature, and are important for a flower growth.

Try and catch them and hold their wings. Hold on to their wings and see what on your fingers. The pattern and colours of their wings will tranfer to your fingers and after that, then let them free. It will fly upon being blown by the wind. Whoever that catches them will dislike them. It beauty will be no longer there. It values will drop, no one will look at it or make it into a display

Woman are like a butterfly. It nice to touch but it values will drop everytime it changes hand. It will drop more drastically when the person is not the person who have the right to touch. Yes, it appearance will still be the same, but one self respect,values and qualities are all being tarnish. Woman. that how it is. They are like butterfly who fly around with their wonderful presence, but once it being destroy their colours will fade and people no longer want to be with. Butterfly beauty are base on their colour and pattern but a woman, it on their body which is purity upon being touch by her husband.

Butterfly have to fight for their life. They endure hardship and take a long time for them to be free. They were once a disgust little creature who is trap in their shell of life in the tree, upon it being free it changes following their evolution. They a creature which can bring peace to the mind and body of those who look upon them.

Butterfly are a great creature for the woman to realise of how valueable of their life is. When you become the main attraction, don't hallucinate, but stick to being down to earth and have a happy go lucky type of personality. When you being flirt, being caress or beg don't easily give in but remember of those who suffer and have gone through hardship to bring you up to who you have become today. You doesn't become who you are today without your parents sacrification.

Don't be a butterfly who is trap in a frame for people to adore but suffer deeply. Fly freely and you have a quality that have to be uphold. Your right is the value of one self. For how long have you uphold your values and self respect for the best, till you doesn't care to who you give your values and self respect to, you will loose all hope and your future.

If a butterfly knows how beautiful it is, it won't easily fly everywhere. Because everytime it spread it wings, it will openly become a prey and bring danger to itself. A butterfly doesn't know it is always a prey to the human. If a woman doesn't know where she stand then she too, like a butterfly stand in a danger zone who just waiting for the time to be destroy.

Bring your values to the highest level. The harder for you to get, the more value for the man to keep hold on to. Man are a destroyer who only want to have the authority to keep hold on to you but doesn't want to be commited, not even being protective. Don't be fool to he will undress the colour of yourself. Colour meaning values and quality. After the colours are gone, he will leave you alone. Alone is another tragic point of a person, who in the world would want to be alone. So be a woman who have the right values and people will give the respect that that need. Your values do not stand on how many guys you go out with but with how many guys can really fall in love with you. Love can be define as care and happiness with full of sincerity. The longer it takes for you to find true love, it as a chance for you to fly freely as that is your right, just like a butterfly who fly freely wondering around happily. Be like a butterfly in which they beautify the nature, be a woman who others will be proud of.

-Taken a few lines from webkl.net-

2008-06-03T17:36:00.002+08:00

Kaulah Darahku Juga Nadiku
Kaulah Nafasku Juga Jantungku
Engkaulah Hatiku Dan Juga Jiwaku

Aku Mau Hidup Denganmu
Aku Mau Matipun Karenamu
Aku Mau Disisa Waktuku Bersamamu

Kaulah Senyumku Juga Tawaku
Kaulah Damaiku Juga Bahagiaku
Engkaulah Teduhku Tempatku Bernaung

Kau Yang Slalu Setia Menemaniku
Meresapkan Harumnya Cinta Dihatiku
Kau Yang Menyayangiku Setulusnya

Aku Mau Hidup Denganmu
Aku Mau Hidup Denganmu
Aku Mau Matipun Karenamu
Aku Mau Disisa Waktuku Bersamamu
Hanya Bersamamu

Aku Mau Hidup Denganmu
Aku Mau Matipun Karenamu
Aku Mau Disisa Waktuku Bersamamu
Hanya Bersamamu

Aku Mau Hidup Denganmu
Aku Mau ..
Aku Mau Matipun Karenamu
Aku Mau ..

Kaulah Hidupku Dan Juga Matiku

For you...my Bulan...

BYE2

2008-06-01T16:11:00.002+08:00

31 May 08, SIA Airline House, ISQ Building, Material Department, would probably be the last time that I ever go there. Thnx guys for the wonderful experience. We shared the gd time, the bad time and the crazy time together. I did get along well with all of them, the SIA staff and also the contract staff. Almost 3mnths but it felt like more then a year working there. Things that I would not forget, opening and covering the canvas, Zul n Farhan using the forklift like hell, the fanatic soccer guys, Pcik Ghani singing and laughter and many more. Hopefully we able to meet again at Magic Wok or someother place aite. Here a few pix it taken on a Sat so some were on off daes.

PCik Ghani, me, Katrick n Nathan

Me, Faizal (sitting dwn), Hussain, Tan n James

Me, Boy, Zul n Nathan

More pix n todae lst dae of werk....argh!!! sad3...

2008-05-31T01:05:00.004+08:00

So todae will be the last dae I be meeting the MD staff, Im quite touch actually, hearing wat the contract staff sae...boo hoo... nvm we will meet again insyallah...

So here a few pix taken during our outing and also more of the pix at WWF. Not much to blog just feeling uneasy lately...dont know why....

WWF,Werk and Movies...

2008-05-28T21:31:00.006+08:00

Hello guyz...hahaha mcm lah ramai org bace blog aku ni. Hahaha anyhoo for those who read ma blog, Im really sorry at not updating much. Been really bz with werk. It almost going to be 3 mnths and dis week would be ma last week werking. Going to miss them...Never in ma life have I ever werk in a very stressful, crazy, chaotic n funny place before. Nvm I talk abt them later...

Last few weeks been going out and watch movie wit the K*, 1stly watched What Happen In Vegas den last week watched Indiana Jones...a typical Steven Spielberg movie *wink2* hahaha but full of stunt and action and lot of neck strain...thnx Eddie thnx for the row that we sit in hehehe...

Here the so very late pix of WWF. Zac damn u, where the pix of our outing and the rest of the pix taken during the WWF??? Sian ler...(Sunday nite Monday morning~~ hehehe)

During this time, just infront of the stage...a moment dat I could not believe it...Yeah wat a waste man...haiz... Yellow Spag, black jean...still remember...5 mins!!! Off she go...bye2!!

Original Singer - Altimet and Adeep
Songtitle - Chantek

1 month to go...wanna go shopping!!!

2008-05-13T22:39:00.004+08:00

1st of all MAN UTD RETAIN THEIR TITLE!!! YESH... and a plus...Ryan Giggs (my all time fav player) equal to Sir Bobby Charlton appearance record AND score the goal that seal the title....MOSCOW here come the Devils...Chelsea...be prepare~

Hellow...haiz..sian ler...left 1 month to go... nw here a lil update...went to watch movie with Eddie,Zac n Zurah lst Sat...We watched "What happen in vegas"...a comedy romantic movie..damn funny..the storyline ok-ok but I feel like it lack of "love aura" in some parts..I mean it should make the love scene much more stronger rather then rush things up...Eddie I told you it not worth to watch Speed Racer hahaha serve you rite... Nxt movie will be Indiana Jones. Be asking ma fren to buy for me Chocolate, Made of Honour and Accuracy of Death.

Want to spend all my last few freedom daes with my friends and love one as much as possible. Didn't get to see Shasha over the weekend..miss her alot...Nvm later Usu will buy you bdae gift aite hehe.

Now Im confuse at what to buy. MP3, PSP or Sony Ericsson phone. Im selling off ma 2 yr old phone...tot of getting a gd phone but bcos of im going ns soon,think Im buying W950i. All complete in it..there a mp3,radio n a very big storage to stuff ma pix,vid and song.

Hmmm...

Sony mp3+cheap non camera phone = xtra saving.

w950i = dont have much money but save me from buying mp3, one gadget that whole all the stuff I need.

PSP = not really on top of my list...

I dreamt about my mum passing away...In ma dream...I don't know where my bro or ma dad go. But in that dream...I was really sad and I have no one else. I think ma dad have pass away earlier and then ma mom. Thats why I was really sad. That the negative part of ma dream, no family member but the positive things is....I have a job, have big bike and cars and have ma own house which mean Im able to take care of myself but again what does that all do when love is much more needed then wealth. Mayb what my dream is telling me is dat we human one dae have to go back to HIM and I am well enough to take care of myself. Whatever it is..wen the time come I have to redha and accept fate...but I pray that the dae will be many5 years to come...let me be able to take care of ma parents, give them all the love and happiness, have ma own family and when there no thing to worry so do i speak...when the time come for HE the creator of us, invite ma parents to heaven, then to HE that I redha for him to do everything HE decide....

NS!!!

2008-05-03T21:59:00.003+08:00

I just got my enlistment letter. Hoping to get what I wish for, straight away I open it. Seeing the letter I knew I got army...a few sec reading it, my eye went searching for the word Tekong and the date. It says 13 June..but where the hell is TEKONG!!! After a few mins...I went puffing...and snap back to reality...what the hell....

" You are hereby required blah blah blah to report for enlistment on 13 June 2008 Fri at 9am to 4th BATTALION SINGAPORE INFRANTY REGIMENT (4SIR)"

It located at.......LIM CHU KANG CAMP 1 !!!!!!!!!!!!!

Wa lau wei...so far...damn!!!

Just after I started working for 2 months..just after I thought of helping my family financially....just after I thought I can enroll for my other licences....haiz...Well I don't realli care what I got for my NS but the thing is...it very very2 far...and I be spending 2 years in that camp. Unless I got post out which I really hoping for. Well NS is all about mentality and perseverance hopefully I be strong enough to overcome all the difficulties, obstacles, or discouragement.

Just watched Ayat-Ayat Cinta and Iron Man..will review it soon...